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Scars Of Bullying

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For most students, a good day at school would have been the day they passed a test they didn’t study for or not getting called on in class to answer a question you didn’t know the answer to. A good day for me was not ending up in the trash can at lunch. A good day for me was when I didn’t get shoved in a locker for a whole class period. A good day for me would have been the day that people forgot I was even there.

I didn’t know why people chose me to pick on. It may have been because I was skinnier than most students, but then why would they have called me fat?  It may be because I had tried to be too helpful, but then why did they call me selfish? It may have been because I was smart, but then why did they call me stupid? I will never understand.

When I started High school life stopped being fun. I often woke up and wondered “Why bother?”. Sometimes I couldn’t find a good reason so I didn’t to school on those days.

My mom talked to the principal almost every day, but he did nothing. I often cried myself to sleep as my mother screamed to my dad about the school system.

I had tried to switch schools. I had tried to make friends, but word about me traveled fast. It traveled through the jocks at games and cheerleaders in gossip. It traveled from family to family. I never felt wanted or safe. I wished someone could have saved me from that four year nightmare. I hoped that they would take me to a happier place. A place where I didn’t have to hide in my class rooms at school to avoid fights. A place where I could just be myself and not get laughed at for it. I wished sometimes that I could go to heaven, but reality is, it wasn’t worth it. I had often thought about running away, but what would that have solved?

I am now an adult and the scars I gained in high school will never go away. They may fade, but they won’t ever disappear…and to this day, whenever I am reminded of these nasty scars, I find myself wondering “Why me?”   

THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME. I had decided to write this for all of those who have ever been bullied. <3
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Madam--Kitty's avatar
we all bear scars of some sort from bullying. But the best thng 2 do is 2 keep our heads high and make examples out of ppl who try 2 bully u before more ppl bully u.